Dark Ocean.

Its a pretty dark picture, not sure if you can see much.

This is how i felt afew weeks ago when my depression hit an all time high. I literally felt like i was sinking to the abyss of a pitch black ink like ocean, drowning on it yet still been aware of everything. The faintest light from where i was, getting dimmer and dimmer, it was so deep i felt there was no way to swim to the surface.

Eventually i reached a point where i felt i had sunk so far into this ocean i was about to reach another desitination, somthing new, perhaps not bad but new.. A feeling of knowledge, to discover somthing about life, or the universe or myself i was unsure. But before i reached this strange feeling place, i was pulled back by some amazing people online.

The ocean will always be there, lapping at the shores of my mind. I just want to discover what it all means, but that means risking the deep again. Self discovery is somthing so strange i can barly make sense of it myself.